day 24 of the challenge. your top 3 worst traits.
this is awkward. we're just gonna throw that out there. day of 24 should have made it to my post on things that make me uncomfortable. (guysssss, remember that one?) 'cause this is def uncomfortable. like when my mom or college roommate would catch my dirty underwear on the floor instead of in the hamper. yikes, it's just plain aaaawwwwkwaaaard. no ifs and buts (or butts) about it.
so let's take a deep breath and just do this already.
1. sensitivity. the same trait that made it on my best qualities post (the one where we had to sell ourselves like on a resume) is making this list. the same trait that makes me feel sympathy towards another person or feel elated when someone encourages me is the same trait that affects my heart so negatively when i am targeted by someone's criticism or not so positive comments (even if that person may not have even meant it to be malicious).
2. over-thinking things. this is probably a result of my sensitivity. conversations. situations. opportunities. retail purchases. i think through conversations and wonder what did he really mean by that? or what did she think about when i said that 'cause i didn't mean it that way?! or i'll stand in front of my closet and be like did i really need that pair of shoes? (okay, maybe the retail part is not so bad. Ryan certainly doesn't think it's a bad thing.)
3. worry wart. when i call my husband or my family's cell phone and they don't reply after 3 calls and 10 text messages, i start to worry and my mind goes to a different million worse case scenarios. when i can't remember if i unplugged the flat iron or turned off the oven, i start to worry about burning the house down. when i lay down to sleep for the night, i can't help but wonder if we locked the door and set the alarm. if it starts to rain, i can't seem to recall if i closed the car windows or not. my mind sometimes is a freaking computer desk-top, waaaaaaay too many windows and programs are open and running.
these are traits are not obviously not uncommon. and before you all start freaking out on me and not wanting to be my friend, some of these are extreme cases but it does not make them less true about me. however, i will note, as i have recognized these traits in myself, i have intentionally and personally been working on these specific areas of my life. i think growing up and marriage does that to you. to survive this world, you really can't sit around and let people or situations affect you so negatively. i am not an absolute pro at this yet, but i am learning to be better at letting things go. ah, yes. no fun, but it's truth. and alas, i know i can't just put my head between my knees and rock back and forth, worrying that the world is going to fall apart around me.
despite my worst traits, my insecurities and my own brokenness and the madness of this crazy world we live in, i believe in a God who is in total control...both in my life and in the world around me. i am confident that He who started a good work will complete His work in me (Philippians 1:6) and that all things work together for good (Romans 8:28).
thank God! literally.
thank God! literally.
so there you have it. we just got down to the nitty-gritty (where's the toast, Nachooooo?!) and you got my three worst traits...so um, can we still be friends?