lipstick (moxie): c/o Radiant Cosmetics / rainboots: Hunter Boots
this is unintentional. i did not mean to change Blog Every Day in May to Blog Every Other Day in May, but that is how it seems to be turning out the past few days. weekends and mondays have a tendency to throw me off track. let's see if i can get this train rolling again, shall we?
day 7 of Blog Every Day in May challenges:
the thing(s) you're most afraid of.
when i think of fears, i think of them in two different categories. first, i think of funny fears. you know the kind where some fears are seen as ridiculous by other people and sometimes it's a matter of just trying to get over it. for me...
sharks. we are going to blame Jaws and my overactive imagination on this. yes, i grew up by the beach for all of my life, but i still can't ever stop hearing the Jaws soundtrack when i go swimming. when i went snorkeling in Hawaii, i started hyperventilating when i got in the water. while i was in the water, i kept jerking around to look behind me and all around me to make sure i didn't see some Great White headed my way. thank you, steven spielberg.
amusement park rides that go straight up and straight down. i can handle roller-coasters that go upside down and do all those twist and turns, but the kinds that jerk you straight up and down and then tips you just a little bit and then drops you again...ugh. my fingers are starting to shake at the mere thought of this.
anything that pops especially balloons. oh, so pretty and oh, so cute especially for blog-worthy pictures, right? but the thought of one possibly popping in my face or by my ear gives me the willies. for one of my birthdays back in college, the girls on my floor thought it would be cute to fill up my entire room with green balloons (my favorite color). the floor, the bed, and under my desk were all literally covered with balloons. i pretended not to care - but that night, i laid in bed praying that those balloons wouldn't suddenly gang up on me and pop one after another. one of my girlfriends was nice enough to pop them all for me the next day while i was away from my room, of course.
and then i think about the other kind of fear. the kind that makes you sick to your stomach and your heart literally stops beating. the one that tops my list is unexpectedly losing someone i love. accidents and sudden deaths are a part of life i know, and they honestly always shake me up every time one occurs. the thought of suddenly receiving a tragic phone call or a voice-mail scares the life out of me. it's happened to my family once before and i dread the day that it happens again.
but in a way, this fear keeps things in perspective. since we are not promised tomorrow, it only makes me cherish my loved ones more so. as a little girl, i always kissed my parents and sisters goodnight and told them how much i loved them. i never liked going to bed upset or having something between me and family, and i have seen this carry over into my marriage. life is a gift - a fragile gift that makes me hold the people in my life even closer to my heart.