Monday, March 11, 2013

when wisdom made its appearance like Punksatony Phil.

 dress: Belk / tights: We Love Colors / moccasins: c/o Minnetonka  / infinity scarf: H+M 

today started off as a pretty blaaaah day. not a bad one mind you, just blaaah - which is pretty typical of Mondays, a universal truth. at first, i could feel it start to egg at me, glaring back at my barely touched to-do list and the pile of unfinished headbands on my desk. the spring weather, which got us all excited over the weekend, decided to take a leave of absence and usher in some dark clouds, winds, and gloom in its place. oh, March, you can be such a tease. and Ryan's niece came over to visit so i was a little pre-occupied with watching her draw on a dry-erase board (squiggle, squiggle, erase, squiggle, squiggle, erase) and run around the living room and kitchen with furry, easter bunny ears. we also had fun doing a little photo shoot for her easter card - dressing her up in a denim jumper, a cute pink bow, and using an easter basket and bright colorful plastic eggs as props. 

not that Lily was what hindered me from my to-do list at all. actually, with how adorable she is, she has permission to "interrupt" anytime - it was my own lack of motivation this afternoon when i finally settled down in front of my desk and list of things to do. now i did get through most of it, but was unable to tackle the larger things on my list which started to give me that no feeling. 

yes, that feeling where i feel my stress levels go up just enough for the edginess to come out of my voice and the patience oozing out of me like a tube of toothpaste that didn't mean to squeeze out so much at one time. 

then just as i could feel the exasperation reach its max, glancing at the clock as it clicked over to four zero zero, i let out a deep breath that i had been holding for way to long when this thought crossed my mind: you cannot measure days by what you do. i can't remember if i read that in a book somewhere or i heard it in some sermon - or if some wisdom buried super deep inside of me just decided to make it's appearance like Punksatony Phil, but wherever that thought came from, i needed to be reminded of it.

then i started to think about the future. about ministry or a career. about a house. about (gasp) children. about other things that need to be cared for besides myself, my husband and my own to-do list. if the bathroom doesn't get cleaned or my workout doesn't get completed, will it really be the end of the world?!

i am learning that my days must be measured - or valued or counted as successful - by more than crossing things off my list. though that is one of the best feelings in the world in my book, i want to go to bed at night and think back through my day, measuring it by how much i loved God, my husband, my family and other people. i want to love every bit of life that i have been given - whether expressing myself through art and writing, enjoying the sunshine (when it's around, of course) while on a walk with my husband, laughing with my sisters on the phone, or savoring that spiced vanilla latte from Starbucks. i want to look back and know that i lived life fully and in the moments, not defined by my to-do lists.

much love.
{happy tuesday, friend.}

15 comments:

  1. I just can't imagine you stressed out. I mean, you described it really well, but it just boggles my mind. It's like, you're the happiest, most optimistic stressed out person I know, which is quite inspiring.

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  2. that dress is soooo cute!! ah!
    and sometimes i feel like i do nothing all day and completely waste my days too. i try to do make the most of everyday but sometimes you just get caught up in the unnecessary things

    -marsa
    The DayLee Journal

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  3. First. This may be my favorite outfit on you. Ever.

    Second. This post... I was struggling with that same sort of thing yesterday and today. And sadly, sometimes it's just nice to know when you aren't the only one.

    I love this reminder.

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  4. you are not allowed to be this cute when we meet on the 30th! but you are allowed to be this smart b/c I like all your nuggets of wisdom :)

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  5. This is a much needed reminder for me today. Thankyou so much - it's hard to keep things in perspective sometimes ...

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  6. P.s I love your Chevron dress - sooo cute!

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  7. Really beautiful dress and wonderful photographs.
    sweetie Now I´m following you I hope you follow me back.

    xoxo

    www.sakuranko.com

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  8. I read a whole book recently on the idea "the glory of God is man fully alive." Feeling alive is not something found on a checklist~ but I bet you can find it in a yummy drink from Starbucks and a sweet niece:)!! Good for you remembering the quote...or maybe allowing yourself to hear Jesus whisper it into your thoughts:).

    you look beautiful and vibrant as always!
    xx

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  9. I'm obsessed with your dress! The print is darling and I love how you styled this whole look.
    www.shannonheartsblog.com

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  10. that dress looks SOOO good on you!!!

    xo,
    Sandy
    Sandy a la Mode

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  11. I loved this post! I can totally relate! Sometimes I waste more time stressing out than actually living and I always regret it. So here to favoring life at its fullest! You're also a doll! Love this whole outfit!

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    1. I meant here's to savoring life! Haha!

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  12. I love the pattern on that dress. I always love making browns and tans with black, because I'm a rebel like that. Great blog!

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  13. Love love love this look!

    XO Loni

    www.glamourfixations.blogspot.com

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