Tuesday, May 15, 2012

cold tangerines.

chambray button-up, skirt: belk / tank: forever 21
gypsy wedges: c/o Blowfish Shoes / nails: loreal club prive 

I have always, essentially, been waiting. Waiting to become something else, waiting to be that person I always thought I was on the verge of becoming, waiting for that life I thought I would have. In my head, I was always one step away. In high school, I was biding my time until I could become the college version of myself, the one my mind could see so clearly. In college, the post-college “adult” person was always looming in front of me, smarter, stronger, more organized. Then the married person, then the person I’d become when we have kids. For twenty years, literally, I have waited to become the thin version of myself, because that’s when life will really begin. And through all that waiting, here I am. My life is passing, day by day, and I am waiting for it to start. I am waiting for that time, that person, that event when my life will finally begin.

- Cold Tangerines, by Shauna Niequist

the thought behind this quote has come across my mind more than a few times the past couple of months. life seems to be one long waiting line sometimes, doesn't it? if you aren't waiting for one thing, you are waiting for another. 
and then life goes by so quickly - and then what...?

every morning, i like to start my day off with some quiet time, reading my Bible and writing down prayers or personal thoughts. and lately, i have really wanted to make it a goal to savor each day. not to worry about tomorrow. not to freak out over the upcoming week. but to really, savor the day that i have been given - and that i savor the time with my family, friends or whoever i may come into contact with. and that might even mean, turning the phone on silent, switching the tv off, putting aside that magazine, delaying a blog post, and instead savoring that moment in life by making a Sonic Run with the sister, drinking my morning coffee with Mom, stopping to smell the roses (not literally though since it causes allergies for moi) or putting that to-do list down and blasting the music to dance in the kitchen. this is not easy for me - especially since i'm a planner. but i'm trying.


like a Polaroid camera.
capture that moment. seize it. 
and savor it.

much love.
{happy tuesday, friend.}

p.s. i'm obsessed with this one step Polaroid camera! Ryan gave it to me during my visit to GA last week. the camera was his grandfather's, so i plan to take care of it like my own baby. i'm in luuuurve with it.

32 comments:

  1. this post really resonates with me right now, especially since things are crazy for me right now! but yea, you are right, i gotta seize each day and stop waiting for things to be better!! love you friend!!

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  2. pretty, pretty pictures & such a cute polaroid camera! love what you said about savoring the day...journaling & prayer definitely helps that. xo.

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  3. Word. I LOVE this, Ilene! Thank you for the share. :)

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  4. loved your quote here...what a lovely and poignant thought. thanks for a great reminder.

    and you look beautiful. as always!

    xx

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  5. That's right, girl. Take each day as it comes and enjoy it!! Umm where'd you get the polaroid camera?? I'm itching to get one!!

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  6. i needed this tonight...here i am, planning out my life and wondering when it's going to start when just yesterday i was dreaming of being sweet 16 and enjoying life.

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  7. I love starting off the day reading scriptures. Definitely makes a difference.
    I adore that skirt on you.

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  8. I LOVE Shauna's book. :) Hugs!

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  9. I purchased three copies of this book when I saw this book discussed on another blog a few months back. I gave two away as gifts, my copy is hi-lighted and dog-earred. LOVE IT!

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  10. That little polaroid is awesome!!I love your goal for each day. It's such a great, positive way to start the day.

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  11. Oh friend, I love your heart! I can relate a lot to this post, I'm so impatient and always telling myself "if this happens I will be happier".

    Please tell me you are considering the Oct conference?
    Love you!

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  12. Beautifully written post that I can SO relate to!
    It's super hard to savor the moment when you're a planner...but I'm trying, too :)

    xo

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    ilene i found a polaroid camera in my bf's closet the other day...low and behold it costs 40 dollars for the film so i have yet to make the plunge and purchase some. i'm not even sure if it still works (it was his grandfathers!)

    this blog post makes me lime jello that you have one up and working! good gift on the fiance's part!

    talk soon wild child
    -Hattie
    Hattitude Style Blog

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  14. A great way to live! I wish my friends would put down their phones more often

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  15. I have that same camera! I got mine from my grandma. And I really like the thought behind this post. I think I definitely need to savor my days more.

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  16. I really love your skirt, especially with that burst of color in your top. They look great together.

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  17. Ka-yoot outfit!
    I loved that quote - so true. And you're right. It's so hard for me to not organize my life - I think I'm a bit OCD. :P But I'm gonna try!

    hugs,
    ~bree

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  18. Thanks for this illene, it's such a great reminder!

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  19. Thanks for sharing that quote today Ilene, I really needed it.

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  20. oh yes, this quote was especially true of my 2010 self, when all I wanted was to get engaged & then married...it took me a long time to realize that always playing the waiting game will just suck the joy from the here & now!

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  21. What an eloquent and thought provoking quote... I totally struggle with looking so much to the future that I forget to live right now. And looking back, some of my sweetest memories are of times of in-between. Beautiful post!

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  22. Oh that quote is just lovely. And your outfit is amazing. xoxo

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  23. another PERFECT outfit!!
    that skirt is def my favorite. LOVE!

    PS. need your opinion girly. and since you have like the BEST fashion sense, i was hoping you could help me decide on my next piece!!! THANKS SO MUCH in advance :)

    http://redheadeddaybook.blogspot.com/2012/05/you-decide.html

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  24. Love that camera!!! Ah i want one!

    Loved this post to btw, Now that schools over i feel like i can savor every day now with the worry of homework or classes every day :)

    Thanks for you sweet comment on my blog girl! I've been meaning to read
    "The Selection" but my stinkin library doesn't have it yet :P

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  25. It's true. We do tend to wish life away don't we? I try to get the most out of each day and be happy in the moment.

    Love this look. I'm wearing a skirt in the same color as your shirt today :) xoxo

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  26. beautifully said. I completely agree and have really been trying to incorporate rest into my life.

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  27. so gorgeous!!!! loving the polaroid camera!
    xo TJ

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  28. reading your posts always puts a smile on my face! i love how you're always happy! :)

    <3, Mimi
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  29. You are not alone in your struggle to moment savor. Thanks for the reminder and encouragement for all of us .

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  30. This is a great post. Made me smile :)

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